Friday, January 14, 2011

Stuff

With my last post I was talking about our weekend away.  So, I thought I would give you a couple pictures from our fun time. 
Obviously...Dan & I being cozy!  ;-)
Who doesn't like jumping on beds?

So, we had a nice getaway.  The hotel pool was nice, although it was the first time I have experienced a salt water pool, and the jacuzzi, referred to by Eli as the "Coffee Cup Pool" was nice too.  I'm sure we will do this again, but it was nice to come home.  A 3 1/2 year old stuck in a hotel room only lasts for a couple days.  It was nice though to enjoy some time together away!

Okay, so that aside I am going to be very real right now.  Real & vulnerable, really.  Since moving to Texas I had gained some weight simply because I had stopped exercising like I was.  So...realizing that I had to get it under control NOW, I decided that joining Weight Watchers was an absolute must.  Well, last week I joined.  I was sooo excited about it & was enjoying my week feeling good, but nervous.  My weigh in days are Fridays & yesterday I decided to "weigh" myself at home to see how I was doing.   My scale HADN'T moved at all!!!  UGH.  I was so irritated.  Frustration set in.  I was having a "poor me" day.  I am ashamed to admit it completely took my ENTIRE day.  What a crazy mess.  I know better than this.  What in the world?!  Well, I forced myself to plan out the next week of meals & purposely planned 6 new Weight Watcher recipes in it so that when I went grocery shopping I would be spending money I wouldn't want to waste.  That is what I did.  I planned my meals & moved my grocery shopping to Thursday instead of Friday.  I was so down on myself I was honestly ready to quit.  Really?!  I'm sure this seems unreal to some of you, but really, my biggest fear is failing at this.  Weight is such a struggle for me & will be for all my life, however, I MUST NOT allow it to control my days.  Honestly, it took my yesterday & my morning today...ONLY BECAUSE I ALLOWED IT! 

Reality check.  I am very thankful for people in my life who aren't afraid to bring me back to what I need to hear.  Wow.  I not only wasted my time, but I wasted time yesterday of people I whined to.  I am really sorry to them, but so thankful they knocked me back to what I needed.  I did lose weight today.  I lost 1.4lbs.  Yes, that is a loss.  Yes, that is great.  For me in the past my 1st week I would have huge, I mean HUGE, weight loss.  What I wasn't taking into account (even though others were telling me to) that I wasn't eating like I once was prior to starting WW.  Anyhow...I've been ridiculous.  I am thankful for my loved ones & friends who care so much to listen to me pout.

I had heard the song that I am including below before, but it was pointed out to me by a dear friend again today.  I listened to it again & it is so true.  Stuff.  Gives it a whole new perspective for me.  God knows what He is doing.  Until next time...

2 comments:

  1. I LOVE Francesca Battistelli!!!!

    You're doing great...we all have those days that we let the "stuff" get to us. The important thing is that you've picked yourself back up and you're getting back on track.

    Love you!

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